Ajatelma.

I have two very different ways of thinking, actually each others opposites.

One morning I wake up, and I think, ahh. I need nothing. I want to clear my air from everything I dont need or want, which is basically everything. I want to reach a state of mind which requires no materia, no earthly belongings. I feel no temptation, I just want my space and need to be alone, feel myself floating, floating on forever.

The other state of mind couldn't be more different. I feel that I want everything and I want to have it now! The feeling is not towards materia or belongings, it's more all about people and experiences. I sometimes feel that I need to have all the people around me, everyone in the world, for they all have something new for me, something nobody else can give me. Each experience is worth something, and by gaining those experiences I have more that anyone else in this world has.

Well, in my mind that is. My mind is something no person can take away from me, something that stays, even when everything is gone. And I'm not talking about memories, for my memory doesn't always serve me well. No, I'm talking about my mind itself. Every thing I do, every moment I live on, every second I enjoy and live life to it's fullest, I gain something I can never lose.

Temptation. Something I can't resist, and something I don't want to resist. I wish I had more, so I could dive into them and enjoy every moment.